Thursday, January 21, 2010 1:10 AM
Im going to have a serious breakdown very soon if things aren't going good.
No matter how much i wanted, things always dont go the way i want. I guess this is a test from the God to me. I'm not doing a good job so far. Projects are due-ing soon. Like Hcde, sociol essay and group presentation. Even thought is like only 3. The stress can be compare to 5-6 projects stress.
How i wanted to complaint about them! But what can i do? Complaint doesnt make things go well. But i know in this way i can relax abit. I SERIOUSLY SWEAR I DON'T LIKE HER FROM THE START! I SO WANTED TO SCOLD VUGARITIES AT HER!
I just cant control myself again. The feelings are back again. More negative thinkings are flashing through my mind. This make me more emo. Im not giving any attitude but i just cant control! Maybe next time i will just walked off instead. I just feeling so alone.
Plus im still sick. The feeling of wanting to vomit but cant is pathetic! The stomach will feel weird. Had been like this for a week already. Plus i think i can faint anytime!
Had been sleeping late for the past few days. Thats why i cant remember how did i slept when i was watching tv in the living soon and the next moment i found myself lying on bed! Its a long nap for me, from 8 plus to 12am.
Can God bless me? How i wish i can survive through this period of time!
Im so wanted to go Korea, Seoul. Can i? =D