Sunday, November 21, 2010 11:56 PM
"How i wish there's really a rainbow waiting for me after the dark clouds"
I'm not the type that i can express out. But someday, if i cant take it, i will brust my tears out. I told myself again and again that i shouldnt be that weak..
But im really not those can put words out from my mouth easily. And somehow, i wondered if i really say out. Will it spoilt our friendship? I dun want that. Is not that i do not want to tell. Is just that i dont know how:(
Is not that i want to be sensitive. Im not a good friend. I just dont know how to express my care and concern to them..
i can just sit down and listen to the conversation.
i can just sit down and think alot and not listening.
i can just sit down and daydreaming.
i can just sit down and stone.im tired to be alone. everytime i recall, tears rolled down immediately.i know i shouldnt be thinking that much. im not petty. im just sad.im not those i can interact with. im scared the words come out from my mouth will hurt you.i really want to treasure the relationship. can you tell me how? :(how i wish i can just run off. but i know i can run off forever.
Friday, November 19, 2010 10:19 PM
"What is friendship? Is it a rose or a thorn? Is it love or is it hate? Is it it something that we could just walk by? Friendship to me is something that should be known.. Like a bird helping its mate with the nest building. Friendship to me is something that i am treasuring. I know, i know i have not many friends in real life. And people backstab me. My real life "friends" dont care enough. To at least ask me to the movies or to at least visit."
"There's nothing as nice as someone who shares, your laugher, your secrets, your wishes and cares. Someone who's there through your good times and tears, Who stays by your side as your friend through the years"
"They say a friend is a friend forever. Even in the roughest weather through life's seas are tossed about a friend will be there to help you out. But there are times - It's sad but true - when friendship's flame dwindles in you. The excitement is gone. It's not new anymore and painfully. So we put away friendship with a lock and a key. i just want to say... Don't let that be me. It may not be new but don't let it die i won't if you won't. i won't say goodbye."
Been feeling emo lately. Maybe its due to the surrounding.. Things ain't the same and i can't afford any changes. I mean i can't accept any changes. I didnt meant to tear just now. But i guess its time to say out. But definity not here.
I wondered is my voice that soft. It seems that whenever im talking, no ones is listening. And thats why i dislike talking.. Been talking very less lately. Feel like im way far behind them. I'm tired, just like everyone does.
Being sit with you guys like sitting alone. No ones talk to me, but i guess maybe its good somehow? Can listen to lecture? But i hate to see people whispering in front of me. Its like saying something bad. I know im being sensitive. Who's not?
Can someone teach me? sigh.Being the odd is not nice at all.